The other day I was watching this talk on TED about people
who are naturally introverts and that introversion is in fact a good thing.
I felt relieved after hearing that.
Yes, I am an introvert.
Perhaps some of you may disagree because I do laughed out
loud or speak out load sometimes. However, that only happens with people I am
very close and comfortable with. I think
I can count those people with my fingers.
In other circumstances, say, in a big function full of
strangers, I do not and I will not walk up to anyone to introduce myself.
Small talk is a waste of time to me. In addition, parties and discos do not attract
me.
In a group of casual friends, I prefer to listen than to
talk.
Most of the time, I prefer to be in my own “world” or
“space” than to be outside of my comfort zone (given a choice).
Public speaking feels like a death sentence. I know many
people say that stage fright is in everyone of us. True. However, I would need
far more courage and encouragement than the weight of an adult whale to be able
to do one.
I feel extremely uncomfortable when all eyes are on you. I
prefer to be invisible.
All sound negative? That’s only because this world has been
living in a false premise that in order to be “successful”, we have to be
outspoken, reaching out to people, take initiatives to make the first move, go
into a conference room and introduce yourself to make the first impression, bah
dah bing bah dah boom, so on and so forth.
First, define success.
As an introvert, and a cancerian (if that has got to do with
anything at all), I am comfortable hiding in my own (crab) shell.
Being away from a noisy crowd or a crowd that only strives
to boast about their “wealth” and “capabilities” gives me room in my mind.
Most times, especially at the end of the day, I love to
close my eyes (not sleeping) and think of Krishna, my Lord.
I love the quietness of my home. Only with quietness, we can
go deep into our minds and hearts and connect with that inner world, reaching
in in order to reach out to Krishna.
We spent too much time in this “outer” world, fighting for
things that yield no benefit at the end of this life.
Therefore, introversion may seem like a weakness in this
greedy material world. However, it does not matter what you think.
Maybe this introversion is God’s way of wanting us to be
closer to Him than to be blinded by monsters of Maya.


